Mind Mending

Hello! Hello! Hello! I am starting to feel better!! I know, I know. Shocking!! So, I think the shots are starting to take effect. I am definitely not 100%, and some new symptoms are rearing their ugly heads, but I am noticing a difference. I FEEL different. More energy. Less fatigue. A lot less pain. Honestly, it's a feeling I have inside that something is changing. My vision and bladder problems are still around. As well as my endearing "drunk walk", but I'm hoping these symptoms will fade as well. I feel like I am at the beginning of a breakthrough. My mind is on the mend and I'm loving it!! Ba da ba ba ba, I'm lovin' it! ;)

Hop of Faith

Three shots are officially under my belt. No results yet, but I am staying positive. People keep telling me that I look good. My answer is "the wonders of make-up and a positive attitude." ;) I do have faith and patience that this medicine will eventually work. If this one, Avonex, isn't the one for me then maybe it'll be one of the other medicines that do the trick. I refuse to give up on my hope that my life will return to some normalcy. Some other friends with MS that I have spoken to said it took several weeks before they noticed a difference on their shot therapy, so time will tell. I believe I am in a bit of a relapse and that is putting off the relief. Lately, I have been really tired and in a lot of pain, but I keep smiling and "just keep swimming". Never give up! I see Dr. Beall on the 27th so we shall see what pearls of wisdom he can offer to me. I am keeping the faith for now. I may be too tired and disorientated to take a full leap of faith, but I probably can manage a small hop of faith :) Hop on Baby!!!

Traffic Jam

It's been one week since the first shot. I will give myself shot number two tonight. What a crazy week! At first I experienced a little more energy, but since then my other symptoms have been slowly creeping back up and getting worse. I know that it isn't from the shot and that I really shouldn't see any real relief yet, but I wish I felt better.

I started getting my blurry and double vision again on Friday & Saturday. By Sunday I was having bladder issues again. I almost didn't make it a few times! So I added my Ditropan back in for Sunday & Monday. (That helps, supposedly, with the bladder urgency). Monday I started getting tired/fatigued again. By Tuesday, I was in pain and tired and weak. That escalated on Wednesday. The pain seems more from my Fibromyalgia, which really hasn't bothered me in a while. I think that is acting up because of the rain this week, but that is only a guess.

Today, the pain is better, but the weakness and fatigue are really strong. Also, my balance problems have been bad the last two days. I look like a drunk delivering the paper. I often wonder if anyone sees me and thinks that is why I have this job, so I can hide my drinking problem. Thank God for the cane, it definitely helps to steady me when I feel like I'm weaving in & out of life. Like my own personal traffic jam. All the nerves jumbled up and sending the wrong signals to each other. Beep! Beep! Let us through! Tammy needs to function properly! Hopefully, I will see some progress soon. Dr. Beall did say it would be about a month, so I will stay positive and have patience. No road rage on the MS highway...